Thru' your faithfulness I see my limitations
So many things has happened which then i have no idea where to start.
I see God's faithfulness and the reality of his love in my life.
I know the Holy Spirithave been telling me how much God
loves me. It isnt about what i do that causes Him to speak
to me or reveal more of himself to me. I have always been
subconsciously asking, "Is it because of my failure in disciplining
myself in reading his word and to know him more that I missed
out on so many of his spiritual blessings?" Kind of silly..... but
God dismissed this misconception by showing how much he love
me through many moments of answered prayers and comfort
through his words and his spiritual blessings unto me i know
that his love and grace unto me doesn jus comes through physical
blessings or answered prayers. I believe that even if God doesn't
immediately answer my prayer also does not mean that he does
not love me. Jus that those moments mean so much to me that
i'm so blessed and touched by his acts of love unto me.
It leaves me speechless. Really....
I am thankful that God placed in my heart such excitement to
serve him in many areas. I think i have come to a place in my
heart where i'm willing to go where God wants to lead me to.
i'm willing to continue this journey of giving up my will and
surrender myself so that He can use me as he wish and in
anyway possibly he could. Not that it sound noble just that
when someone loves me so much my heart just wants to do
all that I can to return my littlest and weakest love possible back.
God has also been placing this strong strong burden for missions
in my heart. I have been wanting to go for mission trips just that
my mom doesn't allow me to go overseas for such trips. I didn't
understand why God allowed my mom to be that hinderance,
until lately when she finally gave the approval to go. I rmb that
i decided in my prayer to God that I would only finally go when
i get my mom's approval to go. And that would also indicate God's
timing and "YES" to carry this awesome privilege to go serve him
to bring his love to many other who have yet the chance to know it.
Each year when i hope and wish to go for mission trip my heart
would come to him with such heaviness because i wish this time his
answer wouldn't be a "wait" but a "yes" to me. To my disappointment
for the pass four years God's answer to me has been a "wait". But
when finally God answered my prayers through my mom's approval,
i cried my hearts out as i give thanks to him for this long awaited
answered prayer. I realise my perserverance and waiting has bring
stronger convictions and belief that surely this burden has been given
to me not by myself. It has definitely pass the desire of just wanting
to take an airplane (for the fact that i have never taken one before),
and for the sake of fun. Rather, i know deep in my heart that i realy
want to do this for God. I cannot promise that i would surely survive
through it or can do a fantastic job, but i hope that as i commit myself
to his work, i would continue to experience Him and grow to be more
like Christ. I'm not sure how the yr end mission trip would turn out
for me, but ust walk through it by faith.
I got a carebear for my birthday. Hee hee... Very happy!!!
I just never gotten one for myself in the first place cos it's quite ex lah...
But i really am falling in love with these care bears,
I WANT THEM ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So my aim is to collect them all slowly.... Hee....
Mark my words!!!! I will collect them all one day....
