Can't wait for the week to pass....
Just a few more weeks to moving on to my new job. Quite excited but also apprehensive in moving. I can't bear to leave my little children and my wonderful colleagues. Excited because i know that God led me there. :) I was quite frustrated in church. The moment i step into church my worship-in-charge appraoched me regarding certain matters concerning the worship ministry. I supposed the worship leader forgot that they had to stop practice at a certain timing and so i got a reminder from the worship-in-charge. I felt real lousy about it because i am already feeling rather inadequate in my leadership role in the youth worship team and now i get this kind of irresponsible, short and lousy reminders from him expecting me to know exactly what to do. I ws very confused because my youth pastor didn't get the same message as he passed to me so I was rather frustrated at the miscommunication. But during the short prayer time before service, i teamed up with this brother and I just trusted the Lord to pray and commit this anger into his hands. I just prayed all i can, and like this brother who prayed that it's as if my anger was transformed into energy to intercede for the church and the youth worship team. I truely cried to my heart's content as i prayed, as if a release of this cry in my heart for a breakthrough in our worship ministry for God. know that my frustrations comes from this hope that our church would grow in the way we worship God. So i release that how God can transform my frustrations into energies to pray and intercede so that God will begin this work of change in our hearts together as a church!!! But i also know that i shouldn't judge my worship-in-charge in this way. Who am i to judge him? Surely God appointed him to be the leader of the church worship ministry, I don't have the right to say that about him. Sigh.... lousy von!!!! So silly.... How to serve God like that?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I also hope to continue my daily discipline in reading his word. So if any of you can rmb, keep me in your prayers that I may grow in this journey of knowing Him. I'm sure there are many things that i an discover about who Jesus is and learn to delight in his presence daily. That's my goal, and in his grace, working towards that. Not there yet..... but surely one day i will become one who delights in God's word daily and to shine for Jesus in all that I do. Surely all these can only be possible in his grace......................... This whole week somebody won't be around. :( Away at the cold cold mountains. I hope he have a good time with God, experiencing him in ways he can never imagine. Ciao!!!!!
