Suddenly felt like blogging!
Duhahahahah!!!!
I know! I know! it's been a long while since i blogged! Hey San san, u know me so well ah, know that i will only reply Danile some months later hahahaha.... when i saw that i laughed to myself, it was so funny. :)
This few weeks has been so much better for me at work. I had a change of principal, and things are going so much smoother. Relaxed is the word!
Recently, i am beginning to feel very much left out by my colleagues. A couple of ocassions, they went out for lunch without me. And i was left alone in the kindergarten eating the lunch packed food that my mom prepared for me alone. Usually if my colleagues are ard, we would sit together in the kitchen area, talking while we eat.
I couldnt help but to think, is there something wrong with me that they are excluding me? Or maybe i did or said something wrong that caused them to dislike me. I mean, the exclusion was so indirect yet so obvious. And i jus keep speculating in my mind, " what exactly has gone wrong?"
I think, another reason why i felt left out was also because my colleagues likes to talk and joke about sexual stuff which turns me off! Urgh!!! So whenever they talk about those stuff, i simple give a straight face not laughing at their jokes while the rest of them enjoy it so much. I am not saying that im like super holy or spiritual to not join in, but i know that it really wouldnt please God to join in. And everything within me tells to back off whenever such a topic is being raised. of course there were several ocassions when i felt like compromising by joining in and laughing together with them, but i thank God that by his grace he reminded me that i nd to learn to guard my heart and not compromise. So i guess they realise that i dun enjoy such jokes, they kind of leave me out of it, which i think God for. :)
Yet the misery of it is that im pretty much left out lah! Like extra one! :(
Looking on the brighter side, i know that at least im being left out because i chose to stay out of those sexual jokes, and in the midst of it im guarding my heart and honoring God!!! Im glad i did, but it will always be a constant struggle.
Apart from that, i thank God that im beginning to enjoy my work with the children! I especially enjoy the nursery children. They are so cute and so innocent, teaching them is such a joy! And each time before they leave school i would give them a bear hug and a *muack* kiss!!! Aiyoh!!! Some of them kissed me back and hug me so tightly that i cant breathe hahaha! After such a hard day of work, getting hugs and kisses from them jus makes my day. What else can i ask for man!
I was als think, if i have chosen to work in other fields i wouldn't be so blessed by the children. Althought there are somedays when they get more mischevous and i get angry with them, they still manage to make me smile at the end of the day! Sigh.... so nice!!! (ENVY ME????) kekekekeke..... Opps!!! ;P
I really want to thank God bringing me through such a wonderful journey in life. Can't really imagibe my life without God. think i would be one of those pple out there chasing after world pleasures n wealth! As i look back, im so glad that im secure in the Lord. Im so sure that no one else can make me as secure as i am in the Lord! Not even my boyfriend in future man!!! Hahaha!
How do i add everybody elses' nick into my blog huh??? Somebody teach me please!!! Thanks a million!
