Dear Jesus
24/09/06 I'm writing, to tell you how I'm feeling today. This moment.... Tired, emotional, overwhelmed, stretched, humbled, desperately needing help to finish what I need to do, YET encouraged, excited, refreshed, comforted.... Help me be like an innocent kid, pure in my faith in you, not looking to my circumstances but to you alone. Not look at my checkouts and ministry desperate needs, but to you. That's what I would like to see in my life as I grow. 25/09/06 Arrived at east coast: 2.30pm 2.45pm: Here I am, sitting by the Bedok Jetty. The refreshing wind that beats against my face is like that of God's unexplanable love for me. As I gaze upon the vastness of His creation, even though I've not seen the more awesome and majestic ones, I just know in the depth of my heart that I've an Almighty God. It just felt like an immense power holding together everything in this universe and my life. You see the contrast? Universe(Huge) vs my life(small) No one will ever compare to you, my Jesus! No one will ever take over your place in my heart... NOTHING!!! 3.38pm: Cycled to the other side of the sea/beach. Though this part of the beach isn't that pretty but it's all quiet and peaceful! Somehow, after this simple time alone with you, I don't know, I just am confident that I know all things are possible because I have you Jesus! :) 5.00pm: Watching the people fishing while i cycle by reminded me of my daddy. I know my daddy loves fishing. He owned many fishing VCDs. I for one have never fished before, so I probably could never understand what's so interesting about fishing. But my heavenly father reminded me of how I could connect with Him from there! Oh Gosh!!! I've always think that someone who enjoy fishing must be really patient, so perhaps before these bondages got a hold of my daddy and not to mention his difficult family background he must be someone so. I might be wrong... i would love to know the Daddy before he started those bad habits. Lord, wouldn't you grant me my very heart's desire? An opportunity to get to know my Daddy's world deeper? In anyway, activities or just a simple conversation. I don't want to look at my Daddy from a far and only can wonder what's in the deep of the deep on his inside.
