one month 3 days....
Heyo people!!!! :)
Hahaha... its my one week march holiday!
So happy... finally get to have some good quality rest.
Well, time does fly pass when things get busy at
work and all, but it doesn seem so for something else.
He's like left for one month plus and its so slow to pass.
how is one yr supposed to fly pass quicker???
not mentioning two yrs. hmm....
Anyway, my internet has been down lately,
which made me real frustrated and all.
Cause somehow the only way to communicate
with him is through the net and that ONLY
thing just have to break down so "timely"!
Yet God showed something beautiful to me
that day, when i finally decide to give up
trying to get the internet fixed. I ended
up sitting in front of my computer crying still
helplessly frustrated with what has happened,
feeling so silly. I winded up in my room sobbing
and crying. Not because of the break down of
the internet though partly that contributed to
my frustration, but i heard the Holy Spirit
telling me something which i unrealisingly
tightened my grip on again. GIVE IT UP!!!!!
That night was tears of surrendering and releasing
unto the Lord again, but i know that was the
thing to do..... my heavenly Father says,
"it's the best for you and him now."
God showed me in John6:1-15 and John5:1-15
how i need to learn to have faith and not think
in my own human logical ways. God loves me
and him and wants the best for us both and he
needs me to learn at this point in my life to
walk by faith and look to Jesus. When Jesus
healed the man at the poolside, the man
didnt need to get into the pool to get healed
eventually yet somehow when Jesus asked him,
"Do you want to get well?" the man reasoned
with all logical reasons which makes sense,
"i have no one to help me in..... while im trying
to get in someone else gets in before me." how to
get healed like that?????? Yet Jesus thought of it
differently!!! All he needed that man to do was to say,
"Yes! i wan to get healed!" and Jesus healed him.
so similarly when Jesus asked his disciples where to
buy bread for the five thousand to feed them, his
disciples also reasoned with all logical reasonings of
how eight month's pay won be enuough for all to have
a bite, but Jesus fed them all with just 5 small barley
loaves, and 2 small fishes and there was still left over!
Amazing isn't it???
So, God assured me of how my life is secured in his
hands regardless of circumstances that seemed
impossible and difficult. Learning to have the faith to
look to God only and not look to him.
Really, now i understand what it means
that surrender is a process.
Im going through that process.......................
