Don't treat me so well, for i'm about to disappoint you.
I just haven't been sensing God's peace in regards to my friendship with you for a while even when you were away. I have been sensing a no but i refuse to accept it to be a no at all. Now as i get to know you better, i know my answer. I don't seem to see myself at ease with you in many areas as i ask myself if i am able to accept you just the way you are. My answer sadly, is a no. I can't... i can't explain why i can't but as i watch the littlest of what i can see and hear of you and your life, i wish it to be stronger in the Lord and the many differences in opinions which i realise i cannot go with. Not that you are lousy, i assure u, absolutely not! Somehow when i choose to let you go, i sense a release from within. it's peace, because this battle baffles me far too long. I think about it when i bathe, when i eat, sleep, travel... And when i finally answer my own question, i know it's God's leading ultimately as i prayed. I'm not sure if i can take it, but i know that its all gg to be by His grace. For i rmb i told Him that no matter the ending, we'll cont to grow in strength unto God and trust Him for it.
