Help........
When will it ever stop hurting, Lord? When im already in the midst of something that hurts terribly another have to come. It's so dreadful Lord. So dreadful............... It's so unfair. Did i do anything wrong to bring such misery? ["You've got something against me? I didn't do anything to create such frustration to you did I? All i was trying to do was offer comments and being myself. Why? All i ask is for you is to accept me as a sister in Christ the way I am. That's me! If I have areas which you know i need to change please tell me directly. DON'T torment me by telling others what's untrue of me.......................................................... And then having to hear it from them!!! Maybe i'm in the wrong but i need someone to point it out to me, or how am i going to know? HOW???? You promised that you will share with me honestly when i've gone wrong or when i made mistakes????? What happened to the promise? Did it turn void? Im terribly hurt to hear it from someone else what you where unhappy about, that happened. All i am doing is just serving our faithful God thats all. Why pin me down??? Does my leadership in the ministry threaten you???? I beg you, please don't be...... Beacuse all i'm doing, is serving my Lord. Thats all. Really... Im willing to give up the role anytime as the Lord leads. I only ask for love and unity to be in the midst of the team. Please.... Let's put down every kind of pride and masks that hinders our service unto HIM in bringing Him glory and praise. Isn't this your very purpose of being in the ministry too??? I beg you..... please........... Forgive me. Who am I but just a servant of GOD? I am nothing apart from God. Everything i am able and i have, comes from God, nothing is of myself. I am just but a slave bought, priceless by this someone who loves me unconditionally whom i owe my life to. And all i want to do is to love him thru my service unto him. It's as simple as this........ So why struggle surendering to my authority? WHY? We are all just serving the Lord. We are all just wanting to serve the Lord. If the problem lies with me, tell me! Please........ Am i that difficult to get along? Yes? TEll me..... Is it the way i talk? Yes? TELL me......... Or is it the way i look that pissed you off? What is it????? If i can choose, i wish i can be someone of a better character. . . and so my very purpose is to pursue him and do that which pleases him as far as i can in his enabling. But I sure do fail.......and you can help me in my pursuit by telling me the truth that lies in your heart. The truth hurts but what you are doing now, hurts a hundred times more then i can explain, then anything else. But how do i ever let you know this cry of my heart, brother??? Will i ever be able to have a chance to share this with you? And will you believe what i say is true from my heart?"] It hurts............. it feels like salt to the wound. unspeakable Lord help Please........... help
