Wonderfully Loved!

Lord, This Christmas season, help me to celebrate with a different attitude. Open my eyes, to see the crowds who have not known the true meaning of christmas. Keep knocking on the door of my heart that I may know how your heart has been burdened for the many who fills the streets this seasons. More then presents and gifts we see, I pray for souls to come to know you this harvesting season! Give your people wisdom in making good use of this opportunity to reach many more. How great the needs out there but many of us do not see. So I ask that God you'll unveil our blindness and hardened hearts to see the great great needs out there to share this love that we have in Christ. Not our kind of love but your kind of love.... This season... help me make a great difference in the lives of people. AMEN!!! :)

Posted by Koren is Vonnie at 12/05/2006 03:52:00 PM | Permalink | Comments

I was really feeling down affected because of a bad night upset with my friend. After my morning class, I know I had to put aside my emotions and head down to NUS medical, like it or not, for witnessing session. My coach was supposed to be watching and accessing me from the side while i share the gospel with students sitting around in the midst of preparing for exams. But I was so unwilling, being a very emotional person.... but I know God was nudging me really gently encouraging me to just go ahead regardless of not feeling like it. I did, for the next 2hours or so, I was with my coach Evangeline sitting from bench to bench talking with students finding out how are they in the preparation period of exams and asking if we could share the gospel with them. I managed to share with 2 of them the whole gospel but one of them, was reassuring her of her salvation in Christ more. Although I didn't get to share the gospel with the few that i manged to get to know and chit chat with but I am opened to an awareness of singapore student's heart conditions. I felt like God would continue to burden my heart to pray for this field here in campus that these doctors and nurses to be will become God's vessels to bring many more to Christ. That they will not only heal physically but also spiritually! And guess what? I just felt so joyful and cheered up after that 2 hours plus of sharing and witnessing for God. Through that I grew in my conviction in this, that is when I put God's work and interest first, my inner being is satisfied, because I know I'm made just for that!

Posted by Koren is Vonnie at 11/30/2006 10:02:00 AM | Permalink | Comments

These few weeks has been really ... well more then words can express the overwhelming emotions welling up. Rushing to complete readings due in Nov and all, clearing the final week of teaching checkouts with the following week needing to teach a real actual crowd. And recently I felt God dealing with certain heart issues in me I was hurting badly and wasn't really willing to let it go. Yet God was so merciful... I cant imagine how He could do this. This moment while typing this I'm smiling unbelievingly that He can be so marvellous. While everything is up in the neck, and I was just telling God that i'm not even sure how I can ever manage to finish preparing for my teaching checkout by today for tomorrow but I jus know that I need to come to Him for some personal time to learn to give thanks to Him and trust Him in things i cannot imagine possible. And there..... He made a way this morning! While I was still spending personal time with God, my colleague called to inform that the instructor teaching us this morning is sick and all our morning class is cancelled. I tell you how i marvel at His amazing way of showing a way out. It's so simple yet I felt like once again God's love just overflow unto my heart I cannot but praise His name!!! I don't really know to put into words this experience with God though so simple yet so beautiful. I just feel like plucking out my guitar and strum His song and sing aloud of His power, awe, might and love!!!! But I cant do that lah, cos so many people in the room so I shall go to the rooftop later to do my own praise and worship like how i usually enjoy doing so with the wind beating down on my face while singing! *looking forward* Immediately I set myself to blog so that i can share this thanksgiving and praise Him too... Yeay!!! God you are awesome... :) Give thanks to God for me too yah???

Posted by Koren is Vonnie at 11/30/2006 09:39:00 AM | Permalink | Comments

Oh well, I suddenly realised that I might be suffering from what it calls, "psychosomatic syndrome"because I will get upset stomache, fatigue and constipated each time I get too stressed. One example I can quote is just this week itself, Fri was supposed to be our checkout. And I was quite anxious about it as I prepared for it throughout the week but with the so many steps and things that was required in the super long SOP this time, I really freaked out. I also must say that I have not been depending on Him. That morning when I woke up with an upset stomache plus I was so tired, I began to wonder if I could even make it for the afternoon checkout as National staff meeting was shifted to Friday so that we could have Gilbert Beers.He was really good and engaging but I couldn't quite concentrate as I was having a rambing stomache. The forerunner led a wonder worship too but I couldn't quite concentrate on worshipping too. So I finally gave up struggling went upstairs to peace room to rest. Realised how much I could really push myself and before I know that I have come to a limit of myself, is when the symtops start showing like that friday. It was really God who helped me feel better and that I could continue with my checkout that aftern. I really jumped and rejoiced when Evangeline, my coach who accessed me showed me the SOP that I passed this checkout. Gosh! I realised much of a difference depending on self and evantually depending upon Him. I rejoiced cos I half expected myself to fail. And I felt really greatful that He helped me through it. I was really so tired, I spend almost the whole day catching up on my sleep today waking up for meals! Record breaking... But there is one thing that I'm thankful for. Thank you for blessing me with my room-mates. Thank you for giving me the privilege to serve you through the students. Thank you for the awesome blessings of such a wonderful christian family to work with. Thank you for my coach Evan, who has been an encouragement to me all these while. Thank you for teaching me independence. Thank you for giving me salvation that I'm free to dance and praise your name! Thank you for such a wonder "lau ban"in KH. Thank you ........ needless to say for you in my life!!! Oh yes.. and excited, as well as worried that someone is coming back nxt week. excited cos after so long of missing him and his presence. worried cos, not sure of what will turn out of us after he is back as well as getting used to his presence. such an irony....

Posted by Koren is Vonnie at 11/04/2006 08:47:00 PM | Permalink | Comments

Oh goodness! Time flies... almost 2 months has passed since I started my full time journey , training at GCTC with Campus Crusade for Christ. Been staying at GCTC (Great commission training centre). People say it's so much like army booking. HAHA!!! Oh well, there is in some sense similarity but huge part that is different. I realise how much independence I learnt staying there. Washing clothes, meals, housing cleaning together with 9 others, making my own bed, learning to be more sensitive with other's needs and many more I can name. It's good training that I didn't regret though it was tough for a start. More then that, I see God using these people around me and the classes I go through daily to teach me more about Him and myself. Interesting huh! Seeing more ugly sides of myself which I know he is leading me to deal with together. Lately, Amy Lau's class on old and new testament surveys has arise a great interest in me to look into old testament. The motivation to move thru books in the bible that I have not studied or read thru b4. I started on Leviticus. One sentence in the verse struck me real hard. I really cried when i realise what God revealed to me that morning. "...... If the offering is a burnt offering from the herd, he is to offer a male without defect." I was just starting at it realising that in modern days that represented Jesus! A offering for our sins without sin and fault... I couldn help bt overwhelmed by the truth of how much He loved me willing to take the load. I cried. So grateful!!!

Posted by Koren is Vonnie at 10/28/2006 07:04:00 PM | Permalink | Comments